Confused.

 I am such a fool....

These last two weeks, the past caught up with me. Reflecting back, we were all so young, stupid and damn naive... Thankful I've learnt from those mistakes and that I'm not that awful person anymore .
Ceebs blogging on a small laptop...

I don't know why I can't type what's on my mind.
i don't know what to do..

There you go trying up + back in my life...
I want to stay with Andy...
I don;'t want to leave him just for my ex..
Ive done it ttwo too many times before.. run back to my ex...it's just pathetic.

I haven't yet blogged about Andy..
I am very grateful for Andy.. he takes care of me so good. I love him.... He cares for me so much-does everything I ask him to ... I am just such a bitch sometimes..
Its almost our one year. I got him a little pressy - i can see a future with him definitely...


It was easier to let go when I got to speak to Minh about our unresolved issues.. For him it was a different story.. I told him I cant see or talk to him anymore.....
Hesays hes gonna continue..

its so hard..

god fkn damnit..

I just dont know...

My feelings arent just the same for Minh anymore although I thought he was the love of my life.. things have changed...part of me is still there with him..things are too complicated. I want to stay with Andy and thats what I will continue to tell myself..

why can't things be plain and simple.

I will try stop talking to him. I am trying. I am better .. and he knows it..