i had the most disappointing and fucked up dream@

...

=_=

fuckk ,,

i was at minhs new house and he was having his bday party i believe.. everyone was there.. including Thuy .. EVERYONE. and yea.. everyone was in minhs new room...
and (omg fucked up ..mind fucked dream )

and there were lots of people there..

and minhs mum came in the room and she was like telling minh to sleep n everyone to go home.. but everyone was still around.. eventually minh was in bed and his mum was like telling Nhan to go to bed with him so that everyone else could go home.. and i saw her jump in bed with him..n she even greassed me off when she was walking past me .. ouch . and i got soo soo soo upset... so i ran outter the house... and Thuy followed me .. and we walked down the street and I was like to Thuy "i was hoping you would run out.. i knew nobody else would" ... and she was like 'are u okay..' and im like 'yeh ..yeh.. yeh. ^__^ im okay.." and then i was like ' hold on okay?' and i just started crying and crying and crying and i stood there until my legs n eyes hurted... i just remember i cried so much.. :/ and Anthony Mateo walked past o_O .. n he saw me crying and he said hi ... then we hoppd onto the bus.. and i was telling Thuy how i felt.. like i even remember the whole dream so perfectly that i remember every sentence i told her! i told her that "he never used to be like this.. i remember he told me that he was gonna treat me the best way he can and never hurt me.. he lied... " and i was retelling stories of how cute he was... etc.. and next thing u know, i looked up and EVERYONE on the bus was looking at me and sitting close up to me as i was retelling the story of me n minh :S .. and im like wtf O_O .. lol.. then David n Linh(thuys bf) hopped on the bus .. and thuy was pretty pissed off at linh as well for some reason.. and the bus went through a Slurpee drive thru.. and david orderd me a slurpee..

i headed back to minhs party alone .. (dont know where thuy disappeared.. think she saw Linh n jumped off the bus)

and when i was at minhs place.. apparently he had a heart attack.. and ambulance was there... and all his friends were still there. but he was upstairs and nobody could go up because ambulance was trying to shock/resusitate him.. and yea.. so like .. I found out about it .. and i got so upset... and his family wouldnt let me go upstairs so i was screaming out "MINH.. MINH.. ULL BE OKAY" .. hoping he'd here me .. i was screaming and screaming ..so hard .. telling him to wake up .. id say that i was at least 30 metres away from him :( ... i felt like it was reality n thhought i was onna lose him.. and i just kept screaming MINH MINHHHH ,, i love you .. dont go okay..
then ..yea.. i waited til everyone went home.. and apparently he was better, but was now sleeping.. so i played the piano next to him laying in his bed.. :(