i just had a little cry...
now i can say as much as i want..because its my blog and nobody can read it except me now...
im feeling really down..
i just want someone there for me...
but nobodys ever there for me anymore.
im not that strong..and pretending to be strong is only making me weaker.
i have to be strong...
i have to be strong..
but
icant
do this anymore...
i really cant..
i dont know whats wrong with me anymore...
im just crying atm...
thats all i can do...
i cant handle the pressure , i have to look affter my mum that has three year old mind... and
ii have to try and please everyone in my life.
i try so hard.
im tired.
now..
im just tired..
i want to scream
because
im
just
so
mentally
tired.
I keep telling myself
dont need a psychologist..
so i stopped going
but
really
I do.
but
it
doesnt help me...
why ami crying so much?
i hate everything and everybody..
nobody will ever read this..
so ill just say watevers.
..today i put my blog on private n my fb on private..to avoid my ex..
but
he still haunts me everywhere..
his names everywhere.
its like..
hes tryna hurt me on purpose..
fuck you Fate.
FUCK YOU LIFE.
fuck you.
FUCK
you
FUCK
YOU
.
and
FUCKKKKKKKKKKK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
i felt like overdosing again..
whats wrong with me..
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