HELO BABABYYEEEEEEEs

deary fcking diary,
HIHIHIHIIHIHIII
LIKE LIKE OMG LIKE OMG BABY BABY BABY UHH UHHH UHH THERES SO MANY WAYS TO LOVEE YA..U GOT ME SCREAMINGGG OHHHH GOT ME LIKE OH OH OH... TIK TOK. OH OH WE GOTTA FIGHT FIGHT FOR THIS LOVE..UONLY GET ONE SHOT.. CAN U HEAR ME? WE GOTTA FIGHTTT. WE CAN DO THIS TIL WE PASS OUT. BABYBABY DIDNT TKNOW HOW MUCH I LOVEDDDYAAA. LIKE OMG OMG.LIKE OMGGG . THERES SO MANY WAYS TO LOVEEE YAAA. GOT ME LIKE OH OH H OH OH DONT STOP. YEEEAAAAAA.DONT STOP.

THAT SONG? DJ EARWORM - LIKEOMG BABY! DL IT

i'M A BIT sad. what's on my mind. alot of stuff. so if youcant be bothered reading, its okay.
im about to give up on everything. LALALALLAAAAAA.
love is such a complicated thing. i thought they're always supposed to be there for you? some days you feel like youre sitting on the shelf... and when they only need you to do something, get something for them.. they use you.....when theyre done with you... they close you up...and drive away.....
thats how i feel.
i miss those days when i was happy....
im at breakage point.
i need to find someone who cares and talks to me. theres so many people out there who i shouldve given chances to...i only realise now, i dont reply to them til 2 hours later..because of one stupid person.. that dont even talk to me anymore... maybe i shouldve given them chances..but why havent i given them chances? cos of this one fucking guy...
if i had the chance to even argue with him nowadays, then it would be great because it would mean we might be okay. but we dont even get to argue anymore.
i dont know when was the last time he said "I love you".
do you know how much it hurts, waiting for him to say something to you..... say somethin you want..
"happy anniversary..." ...
he says that in the last ten minutes of the day when i remind him.
what happened?
i dont know.
is it all worth risking?
im insecure, im dumb....
the things ive put aside for!
backstabbed, hit for, accused of cheating on him by his own friends, accused of being a husband stealer by other asian fuck heads, because of this guy....
and he seems like he doesnt know anything...
i just want someone to realise im his gf.
someone who has patience with me,
someone who can tell me itll be okay,
someone who would just tell me everything.....
someone who tells me whats on his mind..
someone who listens..
someone who can just realise i just care for them...
and appreciate what ido for him..
someone who opens his eyes to realise the things i do... how i care so much... realise i love him..
someone who would just talk to me......
someone who loves me...
or makes me feel loved.......


the best thing in the world is to feel loved....but why dont i feel this feeling?

dont ever fucking promise me. PROMISES DONT EXIST!. promise? what the fuck is a promise?
I DONT BELIEVE IN PROMISES ANYMORE. PROMISES ARE BULLSHIT.
IVE LOST HOPE. I DONT CARE . DONT WANNA BOTHER WITH LIFE ANYMORE. DONT ASK ME IF IM OKAY. COS I HAVE NO FUCKING LIFE. there is no tanya tran anymore.

im getting teary writing this.
im not drunk!.
but i will be.