The decision

I want a love that is limitless - where two can do whatever we want together...
I want a love that is timeless where there is no space or distant that can keep us apart.
I want a love that is selfless - where there is nothing more important than keeping the one you love happy.

- the present, and the future

There's a lot of things I miss doing - and well, one of them is definitely blogging.

My mind seems to have disappeared for a while and I guess when there's nobody who you want to speak to about your issues, all these troubles inside your head go into a phase of bursts.

I am now 21 years old - turning 22 in August this year. Time flies really quickly.

I am dating a guy named Andy and I never blog about him very often at all.

So my father passed away in March 2012 and I cant remember if I blogged about him either.

I am working at Metropole Hotel Apartments in Fitzroy

I am in a complicated situation that's sure soon to be exposed.

I live with my sister and her current bf, Kelvin in Deer Park. We moved here since June 2013 because well you see, I couldn;t handle my arguments with my mother.

I am still alienated from my social world, than ever before.

Andy and I often hang with Lindah and Justin and Minniie and Alex. These are my closest friends plus Christina.

.. soo many things can happen during a period of time.

Well there you go. an update on my life.

Well today I went to have dinner at my mums house and I really reflected and sympathised with her. Although I got annoyed and snapped at her when she said she was shittalking about being bored, lonely and nobody wants to hang with her cos they are scared she will steal their husband  - I really feel for her.

I wish I could re0unite her with perhaps her sisters .. earn abit more money to do that... fix up that stupid back door to the back kitchen of the house that costs so much $$$$ ..and find her a new husband... then again, that would be too complicated because she's not the brightest kid... The way she talks and goes on about how miserable and the things she talks about would probably annoy/scare away her date.
Maybe I will just earn more money + send her to VN for a little bit.. I will try every year.. I don't have to go but she sure can.


Geez - only my dad could ever put up with her. Miss that guy... :/

Mirror mirror on the wall, who is the stupidest of them all

Not a good start to 2014...

I am not doing well.

Done stupid things..

I have gone missing tonight

Confused.

 I am such a fool....

These last two weeks, the past caught up with me. Reflecting back, we were all so young, stupid and damn naive... Thankful I've learnt from those mistakes and that I'm not that awful person anymore .
Ceebs blogging on a small laptop...

I don't know why I can't type what's on my mind.
i don't know what to do..

There you go trying up + back in my life...
I want to stay with Andy...
I don;'t want to leave him just for my ex..
Ive done it ttwo too many times before.. run back to my ex...it's just pathetic.

I haven't yet blogged about Andy..
I am very grateful for Andy.. he takes care of me so good. I love him.... He cares for me so much-does everything I ask him to ... I am just such a bitch sometimes..
Its almost our one year. I got him a little pressy - i can see a future with him definitely...


It was easier to let go when I got to speak to Minh about our unresolved issues.. For him it was a different story.. I told him I cant see or talk to him anymore.....
Hesays hes gonna continue..

its so hard..

god fkn damnit..

I just dont know...

My feelings arent just the same for Minh anymore although I thought he was the love of my life.. things have changed...part of me is still there with him..things are too complicated. I want to stay with Andy and thats what I will continue to tell myself..

why can't things be plain and simple.

I will try stop talking to him. I am trying. I am better .. and he knows it..

Hey

Hey.. what a disappointment... been more tgan a year since I last blogged...
time sure flies..

A lot of things happens within a year. its crazy..

I;m afraid. :) I wonder if Andy's going to read this.. I have been having a wild week.
Just bumped into an ex at Big W. and two of my exes started talking to me again.. and then i bumped into a guy who used to like me..

oh boy things are weird.....

what the hell am i thinking?

mixed emotions?

cant be falling for this guy?

fuck.

ure kidding right tanya?

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tumblr & blogspot. oo

Blogger, you've been good to me!

I'm sorry I've betrayed you with www.titanium-delacruz.tumblr.om

xo

I make longer blogs here though.
hehe. will blog soon, i havent been up to much.